*sigh*

Okay.  So...


My girlfriend, after about a 24-hour period, expressed remorse and said that she didn't know why she got so upset...she said that sometimes, she just gets fired up about certain things at some times, and then later, doesn't know why she got so very upset about it.

In her words, "I feel like a crazy person sometimes."

*sigh*

Well, she's not a crazy person (whatever the definition of that is) - but I'll admit, she can be unpredictable at times (not utterly unpredictable - but, a bit).  It's mostly like this:  The things - like as in, "topics" - that she might react over are fairly predictable; it's whether or not she'll react strongly over them that isn't.

So there are...certain areas and topics that I have to pick (tread) lightly over...and definitely try to "choose my mood" (of hers) that I'm going to address it in.

Whether or not she's fatigued also has a great deal to do with it - which I'm learning.

It's hard, because my girlfriend definitely doesn't fit many characteristics of Aspergers; but in the ones where she does resemble them, she resembles them pretty definitively/strongly.  (Like the "fatigue linked with moods" area.)  And...well, I've definitely recognized in her the "shutdown" phenomenon.  It happens with overwhelm, in the areas of both emotions and just "busy-ness," for her.  But at least, so far as I've seen in our almost 6 months of being together, I've not noticed yet that she does the "meltdown."  -For which I'm grateful, as I think I'd have a pretty tough time with that particular Aspie quirk.  (I'm bad with anger displays and people who are out-of-control.  They really rattle me and I get pretty upset and distressed and feel like fleeing and hiding.  Er, have I mentioned that I score a 103 out of 200 possible in Aspie-traits as well? *chuckle*)

But my girlfriend doesn't match - almost at all - the "difficulty with the expression of empathy" trait, or inability to think in terms of what's happening inside of another's mind.  She's really quite gifted at this, at most times, anyway.  Maybe sometimes when she's stressed out or overwhelmed herself, she might falter some in this area...but which of us doesn't, under similar circumstances?

Anyway...what she said to me today was that, besides not knowing why she should have been so very upset, before - other than that, perhaps if I should have questions for her, just try to avoid including the "Aspie" label in the context of the conversation - she was fine with me asking any questions I needed to or wanted to.  And this is my "normal" girlfriend (that I'm 'used' to).

When she's calm, when she's her "normal" self (or what I refer to as), she's very balanced and measured and rational and loving and sweet.  A woman I love.

And when she's not...well, then it's more difficult.  And turbulent.  But I still always love her.  Her quirks could never make me not love her.  To be honest, when she's more reactive over things - when she's tired or a little stressed or just feeling not "up to" the world in general, for a time - I learn things about her.  I learn about the things that probably do bother her a little more, or get under her skin, at the best of times, even when she is feeling more calm and balanced.  Because sometimes she's reticent to really say how she feels, very strongly, over certain things.  But when she's a little stressed or tired and just not at her best, I at least get to hear a little more (and maybe...more truthfully? candidly?  *chuckle*) about them.  So.  *shrugs*  :)