Shutdown

So I'm learning about what a "shutdown" is in Asperger's/autism parlance.

I'm learning it via trial-by-fire.  My sweetheart is in the midst of one.  She expressed the classic symptoms to me, in an email, and then said she was sorry, but she just really needed alone time.  (Which also fits.  This is the sole remedy to a shutdown.)

It's been a week, today, since we've last spoken.

From what I'm reading about the phenomenon, it could go anywhere from a few days, to weeks, to...some folks have even said theirs have lasted a few months.  (*eek*)

Needless to say, this is a curveball to field, in a relationship.  But now that I've read about a lot of Aspies' experiences with them, I'm nothing but empathetic.  It's scary!

Still...I miss her, and this is hard.  Not too hard to handle, but...not easy, either.  Mainly I've just been kind of tired, and wanting to sleep a lot more, and headachey.  Increased depression symptoms, in other words, basically.  Which isn't a big surprise.  It means she means much to me and is important to me and that this is troubling and that I miss her.  *shrugs*  All that's natural.

Still...it's hard to get up the motivation to do the normal things I need to do.  *hangs head*  *wants to go back to sleep*

Meanwhile, I pray.